soo, yesterday i figure out i pretty much have to decide my life and future by friday. okay well not my whole life so they tell me, just the classes to take that decide what university i get into which decides what job i get which decides how much money i make which decides the rest of my life. no pressure, right?

NO. yess i worry a lot, but i've never been so stressed out in my life. yesterday there was a meeting at the school and i was already stressed out enough because i had to miss ballet and my recitles coming up, and that i have to choose my life by friday. but it turns out me and my friend start crying at the end of this meeting because we don't wanna grow up and we don't wanna have to pick our lives and we don't wanna be told in grade 10 that we already can't go to the university we wanna go to. well you know what i decided? i don't wanna be a lawyer, a vet or a real estate agent. i have absoloutly no clue what i want to be. but i've started working harder in school. a lot harder. starting. . . NOW. && i really need to. im really getting sick of all these changes. and im definetly not a person like that. i loove change! im the girl who re-dyes her hair all the time because she gets sick of it being one colour. the girl who counts down the days till her 16th brithday a week aftger her 15th birthday. im the girl who will play baseball outside in the pouring rain with my brothers. not the girl who crys like a wimp at a career meeting, and is scared of growing up. this doesn't seem like me at all; but let me introduce you to her. "Hello my name is the new Sarah who does not want to grow up but instead wants to be a 15 year old who lives with her parents and does not have to pay rent".

hopefully this girl wont be sticking around for too much longer because i can't handle the stress.

yours till the pop quiz,

sarah .